| i still cant believe that im coming back on this site..every time i just keep checkn this shiz out. haha. yes people im still alive. =P
anyways. so. i finally finished the hardest year of my life..junior year. i mean ever since my grandma passed away, everything got soo hard. i had to have more responsibilities and give up something that i loved... volleyball. but with giving that up, i also gained something. a boyfriend. yes. im back with a boyfriend. and no its not who you think it is. its bassanio. =] but yeah. okai. so heres the deal. 2005-2007. i went out..well actually dated a lot of people... ha. yeah. there was jon, matt, chris b, jake, aj, aaron, ron, tim, jeromie, arlen and i think josh. well. i thought that was a lot of guys. ha. but yeah. for a while, i just gave up. until god sent me someone from heaven. an angel i think. bassanio martinez jr.
throughout all of these people, they've made me a better person. they've made me someone who i know i can be..especially bass. he seriously is the BEST boyfriend ive ever had. ha. no really. well. thanks to ms. nikkie cantoria. goodness. thank god for her too. she put him in her debut court. it was wierd. cause i had this connection with him..like i knew him for a long time when i talked to him for the first time. it was wierd, but comfortable... it was a natural thing.. and then
he called me
we had our first kiss on top of a site in the canyon...
and we went to california adventures..
we got closer.
and eventually.
found that we wanted to have this relationship for...ever.
its comfortable. i never thought that i could ever have someone like him.
omgoodness guys. he even got me a star.
and named it after me.
wth man.
he seriously makes me feel like a princess. i never thought that id ever not try to find someone. everyone that i tried to go out with...i had to put soo much effort. but with him i didnt.
gosh. hes just...
amazing..
and hes leaving for the army.
to texas
for 16 weeks.
and then to georgia.
for 2 weeks.
18 weeks of training.
its gonna be a long 18 weeks without him.
ive gotten so attached that i dont know how im going to react when hes gone.
i think..insanity is the best bet...
haha
just kidding...
im gonna miss him.
like crazy...
-natalie
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| okai so things have DEFINATELY changed since i've LAST wrote in this blog. im even suprised that I've KEEP on coming back to this site, JUST to see how my life used to be before now. its just odd to see old blog enteries of good times...i mean for me... it was the LIFE. i couldnt ask for more..i had everything. the family, the friends, and even a boyfriend! not only that, i had LOVE by ALL of these people...especially from the man up above. but yeah since my last blog things have changed. like... i've made new friends from different schools...the main one..TROY HIGH SCHOOL. i've actually thought of transfering there my junior year.! lol.
i am NOW single. phew. it was a crazy ride being with him. good times and bad times... but i guess it was all worth the ride. i mean learning something new with relationships. its part of life. geez. lets see. i guess you can say im a different person now. people at school see me as the "bitch" and DANG do i want to change that. SO bad. i dont know. i think ill just NOT talk for the WHOLE year... JK. thats impossible for me. but its just like. WHATEVER. cause its either people love me or hate me. im not going to change who i am for them JUST to like me. ill still be the same. maybe change for the better? as in physically. not mentally. yup. hMm.
what else? lets see.thats basically it for now.!
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| HELLO THERE XANGA PEOPLES!!! NATALIE ND CARESSE speaking...::test one two three!!!!:: kee kee...anyway! so yeah im at caresses house..nd me nd caresse just wanted to bring xanga back to life! YAYUHH! wat happened? this used to be the IN THING! now its just boo boo pa chu!!!! lol... no seriously me nd caresse are trying to bring this back to be the IN THING/ LIFE-A! so yeah..i cant wait for DEBUT practice tomarrow!! WOOT WOOT!!! wow we had our class comp today and man was it fun, hahaha. well be even more ready for the next one! just watch! GOSHHH CARESSE DONT FRIGGEN JYNX IT! HAHA... no but we will!! hmMm... but yeah, so we're about ready to do... WHAT EVERYONE DOES... SLLLLEEEEPPPPPPPP.. ZzZzZzzzzzz.... okai?!
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| wow i havent written in this thing forever... well... damn, things have been changing... A LOT... things i never thought that would happen to my friends did...nd like..i dont know anymore... schools in 19 days... or 18 days for the freshman..but friggen a meng... i know nothings going to be the same... i know im going to lose some of my old homies that i hung out with in seventh grade..but i guess you can say thats life? ahh..nd then thew hole relationship thing with people..i guess lesters right...when one relationship ends..ANOTHER BLOSSOMS.. damnnnnn... its reallie gay..i mean i wish i could have a say in everything yah know? nd just be like...NO YOU SHOULD BE TOGETHER CAUSE YOU WERE MEANT TO BE...OR...DAMN YOU SHOULDNT BE DOING THAT CAUSE THAT CAN KILL YOU..but i dunno anymore...like i cant control everything WHICH SUCKS DUCKS BY THE WAY... BRAWR...THINGS ARENT THE WAY THE'RE SUPPOSED TO BE! CAN I GET AN AMEN ON THAT ONE!?!??!!?LOL egh.. life is so friggen frustrating sometimes... its reallie gay other times too...both gays..bad and happy..lol..but still just i want everything the way it was before..when everything made sense...NUFF SAID
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| LISTEN UP LADHIES...
theres so many things one doesnt want to hear... especially if the guy says i love you...nd i care for you...but those are just WORDS... make sure they mean it...MAKE SURE THEY MEAN IT... cause whats the point of your relationship if its all a LIE... nd i know finding true..true LOVE is hard to find... but like i said before..dont waste your time on those guys who think you are a possession... spend those good times with the guy who thinks you are VALUABLE... so valuable that they cant find it in any other store... ..jkjk..so valuable that they cant find it in any other person... dont waste your time with a guy who doesnt love and care back for you..cause in the world..SOMEONE BETTER WILL COME ALONG..ND HE'LL LOVE YOU...ND ONLEE YOU...ND He'll mean what He SAyZ... SO SUMMINNING THIS WHOLE ISH BOO UP... FELLAHS! DONT TREAT CHO GIRL LIKE SHIET! if you reallie love and care about the person you are with then dont MEsS it up...Nd LadHieS! make sure you KNOW hes the right one... DoNt let him make you confused...dont let him hurt you... nd do the same back... cause if you don't it'll all be good...NOOOO SECRETS...
bah..anyways, a lil bit of WISDOM from me...yes me...wow mazin! haha..okai buh like yeah... theres a LOT of people that goes to rah there... oo nd meesa...MEESA MEESA MEESA... girl lemme kick his aSz! haha... im tellin you..no one should ever make you feel like shit huN! you're the best nd you know it! SO YOU DESERVE THE BEST! even though we barely talk anymore, damn girl you still the best...best friend..nd if you wanna be the "flower girl" you go do that! hahaha.... bahh... ALLA THIS SHIZ MESSED UP... TOO MUCH DRAMA FOR SUMMeR...
-nat nat-
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